7th Knowledge

What would you know about pain?
What would you know about suffering?
The only way to know it is to experience it.
And you apparently haven't.

You are nothing but a fool.
You act as if you're not afraid.
But you're trembling in fear.
In a place unseen to the human eye.

I can tell.
For I know.
I will know what I want to know.
And nothing will stop me from finding out what I want to know.

I see through your act,
I see through your lies.
I see through your little facade.
I can see right through you.

You don't look scared on the surface.
But that is because you don't know me.
There are things that are beyond your imagination.
Things that everyone rather not know.

There are many things that happened.
Many things in the past.
But who can ever be certain.
That the past will live on.

I control my feelings.
I control my emotions.
Stop them from flowing out
Like an endless river.

I control my anger.
Keep my hatred.
For then no one can be hurt.
No onle will die.

I swore to a person long ago.
That I would never again.
Play around with human lives.
And think of consequences.

There are many things you don't know.
And I want to let it be that way.
There is more than two sides of me.
But the third should never be revealed to anybody.

For I am RideRRaideR.
And None,
Shall Truly Oppose Me.

6th Sayings

I love you that I would even die for you...

Not a pretty thing to say
Not at all
Why torture the one you love
By dying in front of them
Dying is easy
People do it all the time
Living is difficult
There are too many challenges
Too many choices
Too many risks
Yet so little time
So little chances
So cherish your life
And the one you love
Don't allow them
To be plagued with guilt
Live their life
Knowing that
They should have died
Instead of you
And they feel
That they are not worthy
Of living a life
Given to them by another
Who lost their's

5th Thoughts

I've been thinking.
Quite a lot.
I think about my problems.
I think about my flaws.
I think about my mistakes.
My sins and lies.
And every other negative aspect about me.

Then I started wanting.
I started to desire to solve my promblems.
I thought that I could solve all my problems.
In one shot alone.
With strong willpower,
Nothing is impossible.

That's what I thought.


And I was wrong.


I realised with some help from above.
That I shouldn't jump into my problems
And tackle them all at once.
That I would just drown in them.
And struggle to get through.

I have to take a step at a time.
One step at a time.
Solve one before going to another.
And seek help to solve those that I can't solve alone.

A warriors pride and honour,
Keeps him standing in a fight that is already lost.
But he will still admit defeat to his opponent.
A warrior will not be defeated cowering.
He would stand up and fight.

That is the attitude I need.
That's how I need to behave.
To solve these many flaws that I have.
To solve all of them.

A warrior will not think of how to kill all of his opponents in one strike.
Instead he will concentrate on how skilled they are.
On how fast he will have to move to dodge a blow and strike back.
On the amount of time he can last against his opponents.
And how he will have to defeat them all in that amount of time.
And that means priorities.

I need to put what I have to do ahead of what I want to do.


Don't think that just because it is not their burden to bear,
they won't help a friend in need.
A true friend will always be there to lend you a shoulder to lean on.
So don't be afraid to share your problems with a friend.
They will not leave you in the lurch.
For they are those who have put their confidence in you
And the people that you have put your confidence in.

4th Memories

Have you ever found the time.
To just stop what you are doing.
And think back on your actions.


When you do,
You will find yourself saying,
I should have done this
I could have done that.
Then you say,
well, it's too bad.
It's too late to change these things.

And you are quite right.
In rememberence of September 11,
We would all think on what had happened
Six years ago,
On that fateful day.

If I was a passenger on the planes,
Would I have fought against those terrorists?
If I was one of those in the World Trade Centre,
Would I have been more concerned of my own safety,
Or would I have been worried about others?

If I was a member of the public,
And I witness the event.
Would I have ran away?
Or would I have rushed forward to help the victims?
Where would I have ran to and why?
Would I run to
A place of worship,
A place of tragedy,
Or where my loved ones are?

All these unanswered questions.
No one can answer them but yourself.
But you are in doubt.
Deep down somewhere,
You know how you would have felt.
The immobility of fear,
The fear of immobility,
The sense of helplessness,
The sense of dread,
The feeling of sadness,
The feeling of pity.

And then you ask yourself.
Whom did you fear for?
The victims?
Your loved ones?
Or is it youself?

It is not wrong to be selfish,
It is only human nature to be more concerned about yourself than others.
But have you thought
For the people suffering,
For the people dying,
For those lives that have been lost.
Have you given them even a single thought,
After you ran away.
Into the safety of elsewhere,
Did you think for them?
Pray for them?
Hope for their safety?
Wish for their longevity?

Well, this isn't for you to feel guilty about your inability to help others.
Your selfishness not to even spare a thought for others.
Nor is this to make you regret what you have done then.

But this is a rememberance.
To the mistakes that ordinary human beings make.
No matter how extroardinary the situation,
Human nature will always come into play.
Save yourself first.
You can think about anything else later.

But what if you don't have time to think for them
And your immediate actions will affect the outcome of everyone.

A quote from a book,

"You are to make a life or death decision by the end of this sentence. Oops, too late. You're dead."


You don't always have time to stop and think.
So never hesitate when you are doing something.
It is time you can't spare.
Prepare yourself for the eventuality of another tragedy.
May it be due to rising sea levels due to global warming.
Or another terrorist attack.
Prepare yourself.

For the only certainty in life,

Is hardship.


And death...

3rd Impacts

Something prompted me,
to think of such a thing.
Where would I be,
after everything.

Where would I end,
Where was the beginning.
When would the sand,
Stop flowing.

Time would never,
stop moving.
My body however,
One day will be dying.

I would not live forever.
I could not live forever.
My life will end,
For I am man.

This is a race,
weak and foolish.
Think only of face,
Never once do they relish.

It is a fact.
It is the truth.
But they'll say heck.
And call you uncouth.

They want happiness.
Avoid sadness.
But in their desires,
They hurt others.

They are blind,
Look only at their future;
Ignore the rest of their kind.
That is their culture.

Look at this place.
Where we all live in.
All those days.
They created this much sin.

Our world is breaking.
The environment is falling.
Instead of trying to fix it.
They envision the advantages of it.

Ignore the calamities it brings,
Think only of the good things.
Such is humankind.
A race which is unkind.