Words

Turbulence
noun
1.	unstable flow of a liquid or gas
2.	instability in the atmosphere
3.	a state of violent disturbance and disorder (as in politics or social conditions generally); "the industrial revolution was a period of great turbulence"

Chaos

c.1440, "gaping void," from L. chaos, from Gk. khaos "abyss, that which gapes wide open, is vast and empty," from *khnwos, from PIE base *gheu-, *gh(e)i- "to gape" (cf. Gkkhaino "I yawn," O.E. ginian, O.N. ginnunga-gap; see yawn). Meaning "utter confusion" (1606) is extended from theological use of chaos for "the void at the beginning of creation" in Vulgate version of Genesis. The Gk. for "disorder" was tarakhe, however the use of chaos here was rooted in Hesiod ("Theogony"), who describes khaos as the primeval emptiness of the Universe, begetter of Erebus and Nyx ("Night"), and in Ovid ("Metamorphoses "), who opposes Khaos to Kosmos, "the ordered Universe." Chaotic is from 1713.

Online Etymology Dictionary, © 2001 Douglas Harper

Od

–noun

a hypothetical force formerly held to pervade all nature and to manifest itself in magnetism, mesmerism, chemical action, etc.

Also, odyl, odyle.

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[Origin: 1840–50; arbitrary name coined by Karl von Reichenbach (1788–1869), German scientist]

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.



Ahaha random words that I think needs to be known... Or at least clarified...

Dreams

I remember a dream that I had. Once upon a long time ago. Actually, it was only one and a half years ago. It was a memorable dream. No. That's not it. It was more like, unforgettable. It isn't to be remembered; it is never to be forgotten. That is the diference if you don't know. There are those just like you who are ignorant out there. There are those who know, those who are ignorant and those who feign ignorance. The tyoe that I hate most are the ones who feign ignorance. They know yet they don't want to know. They have no guts to stand up to the truth that appears in front of them. They are afraid of the truth. Such spineless cowards. If they know the truth then share it with those who want to know the truth and can handle the truth. There is no point of knowing the truth if you are going to just ignore it and then run away from it. If you only desire to hear the "pleasant" side of the truth that is as good as not knowing the truth. If you want the truth then know the entire truth. Not just a portion of it. The truth is wide and varied among people but it is still the truth. That is the thing about the truth which makes people not desire to pursue the truth.

Digressing from one topic to another... That is just like me... A trait of a horn section member under an unnamed horn player...

That's it. I'm not in the mood to talk about that anymore. On to the next topic...



What are you doing here reading my blog for?! You no-lifer! This blog is not for the faint-hearted!!! It is not for immature brats who want to make fun of other people either! Nor is it for those fools that are out there who seriously can't do anything but insult other people! Start reflecting on your actions and stop dreaming right this instant people! THIS IS LIFE!!! What you need is a mirror. A mirror which doesn't show your reflection. Instead it shows the true emotions that you are feeling. It shows emotions so that you know how you look like. How ugly or beautiful you really are. There is no age to immaturity just as there is no age to maturity. It is how developed your mind is. How you think and how you interpret things! No! Not like in social studies!! That subject is where the teachers want you to think according to some system! They limit you and you must never follow them. These shallow minded people must look furthur into the truth and look for the subtle hints that the sub-conscious mind take! And that is the way to get through to people! Sub-conscious thoughts! These will get to them in their... Guess what?... DREAMS...




End of story! Updated! Happy now you meaty visitor?! Full of beef...



The truth is never what it seems to be...

13th Post

An excerpt from my story...


A drop of rain falls from the sky. Following it a downpour so heavy it could flood a city. But it never seems to reach anywhere. As if the rain is only around him. It is as if the rain is his emotions. As if his sadness is causing the sky to rain. As if the sky is crying for him. I stood there watching. As if I was mesmerized by this phenomenon. By the way the rain falls on him. The way the rain is only around him. I stood there watching, mesmerized by this sight.



The novel writing competition has started and I'm way behind... I shall have to delay any furthur posting till the end of the month of November.

12th Decisions

There is nothing more to say.
There is nowhere to run.

What will you do?
Where will you go?



You have reached the limit.
There is nowhere else to turn.
No more lies to tell.
No more space to run.

You are surrounded.
By your own mistakes.
You have been boxed in.
By the walls you made.

You have to decide.
You can't go on forever.

They will catch up to you.
No matter how fast you run.
No matter how far you run.
No matter how long you run.


There is no way for you to escape.
No more tricks to pull.
No more lies to tell.
No more roads to run.

11 Questions

Question 1
What defines reality from imagination?

Question 2
Who defines what is right or wrong?

Question 3
What does love really mean?

Question 4
Who do you turn to when you need help?

Question 5
Where would you go to run from your troubles?

Question 6
Who do you depend on to understand you?

Question 7
Who do you really care for?

Question 8
Who do you really like?

Question 9
Who do you love?

Question 10
Do you really love that person?

Question 11
Does he fit into all those categories above?

10th Miserables

I hate these creatures...
The majority of them anyway...
Useless and insensitive...
Liars and tactless...


What creatures you ask?
Easy.
You're one yourself.
A human being.

Why.
A simple question.
Requiring ananswer on a totally different level.
An answer whose depth is unparalleled by even the deepest ocean.
Let me tell you, the reason why.

You all are insensitive.
You ask questions that don't have to be answered.
Yet you ask them to answer.
You talk about things that affects others.
In a tone which is totally unsuitable.
You ask questions without thinking of their feelings.
And when they get angry at you.
You say, "i tried to talk to you nicely yet you get angry with me. You are totally unreasonable."

Well I got news for you!
You're the one being unreasonable.
You are insensitive to my feelings yet you behave in that manner.
You cannot even begin to comprehend what you are talking about.

It's like having someone close to you killed,
And then telling them to grow up and move on in an angry tone.

It's like that.
Try to imagine that!
That's how it is.
You are but insensitive.
Stupid.
Incomprehensible.
And blind to emotions.

It has been made clear that I don't want to talk about it.
Yet you pursue the matter.
You keep badgering me until you get an answer.

You are but nothing.
Nothing!

Nowhere close to the level of understanding I have.
Not everything you see is what there is.
There are feelings and emotions behind every face.
You can tell by each tone of voice.
What they are feeling.
They can mask it.
But it cannot hidden totally.
That is impossible.
Unless you are not human.
Which you are.

There is a certain extent to everything you can do.
And there is a limit to everything you can do.
Don't do something that makes others miserable.
For you can never know
What they are thinking inside those minds of theirs.

9th Treasures

What is really precious to you?
What do you really want?
What do you really need?
What is it that you really treasure?

You know what you want, what you have.
You know what is really precious to you.
But do you really treasure it?
Or do you take it for granted?

I despise it.
The way I go about.
As if nothing really matters.
As if notthing is important.

There is a need to know.
There is a must to realise.
What is really important to you.
And to cherish it.

For it can disappear.
It can be taken away.
In an instant.
in just one moment.

Treasure what you have.
And cherish it.
You may never know.
If it would be taken away from you.

Nothing is eternal.
Nothing is infinite.
Nothing is forever.
Nothing is everlasting.

So cherish everything.
Take nothing for granted.
Whether it is a precious belonging.
Or a loved one.

They do not last forever.
So cherish them while they are still here.

8th Limitations

You feel inferior.
You feel weak.
You feel helpless.
You feel useless.

But that isn't true.
You know that isn't true.
You are much stronger.
You know you are.

You look at people.
Who are better than you.
Then you say that you are weak.
That you are incapable of good things.

You have to stop this madness.
Stop this insanity.
There are people better than you.
There will always be those better than you.

But there will always be those.
That are better than those you look up to.
In this world,
There is no best!

There will always be someone better.
Someone stronger.
Someone much more capable.
And no one can reach the top of the list.

Look at whats in front of you.
Look at it.
Realise that you are good.
Even though there is someone better.

Wake up from your dreams.
You will never be the best.
There will always be someone better.
Don't strive for the impossible.

Don't get depressed from reading this.
This is not to demoralize you.
I want you to wake up from your actions.
And realize that there will always be someone better.

It's not wrong to want to be better than others.
But to strive and persevere to that point.
That is a mistake.

You work hard.
You work even harder.
But there is a time.
Where you have reached your limits.

But you want to surpass your limits.
But realize this.
If you surpass your limits,
Then those aren't your limits.

Limits are unsurpassable.
It is the peak of the mountain.
You can't climb on nothingness.
You can't step on air.

Know where your limits are.
If you haven't reached them yet,
Then you can continue going forward.

7th Knowledge

What would you know about pain?
What would you know about suffering?
The only way to know it is to experience it.
And you apparently haven't.

You are nothing but a fool.
You act as if you're not afraid.
But you're trembling in fear.
In a place unseen to the human eye.

I can tell.
For I know.
I will know what I want to know.
And nothing will stop me from finding out what I want to know.

I see through your act,
I see through your lies.
I see through your little facade.
I can see right through you.

You don't look scared on the surface.
But that is because you don't know me.
There are things that are beyond your imagination.
Things that everyone rather not know.

There are many things that happened.
Many things in the past.
But who can ever be certain.
That the past will live on.

I control my feelings.
I control my emotions.
Stop them from flowing out
Like an endless river.

I control my anger.
Keep my hatred.
For then no one can be hurt.
No onle will die.

I swore to a person long ago.
That I would never again.
Play around with human lives.
And think of consequences.

There are many things you don't know.
And I want to let it be that way.
There is more than two sides of me.
But the third should never be revealed to anybody.

For I am RideRRaideR.
And None,
Shall Truly Oppose Me.

6th Sayings

I love you that I would even die for you...

Not a pretty thing to say
Not at all
Why torture the one you love
By dying in front of them
Dying is easy
People do it all the time
Living is difficult
There are too many challenges
Too many choices
Too many risks
Yet so little time
So little chances
So cherish your life
And the one you love
Don't allow them
To be plagued with guilt
Live their life
Knowing that
They should have died
Instead of you
And they feel
That they are not worthy
Of living a life
Given to them by another
Who lost their's

5th Thoughts

I've been thinking.
Quite a lot.
I think about my problems.
I think about my flaws.
I think about my mistakes.
My sins and lies.
And every other negative aspect about me.

Then I started wanting.
I started to desire to solve my promblems.
I thought that I could solve all my problems.
In one shot alone.
With strong willpower,
Nothing is impossible.

That's what I thought.


And I was wrong.


I realised with some help from above.
That I shouldn't jump into my problems
And tackle them all at once.
That I would just drown in them.
And struggle to get through.

I have to take a step at a time.
One step at a time.
Solve one before going to another.
And seek help to solve those that I can't solve alone.

A warriors pride and honour,
Keeps him standing in a fight that is already lost.
But he will still admit defeat to his opponent.
A warrior will not be defeated cowering.
He would stand up and fight.

That is the attitude I need.
That's how I need to behave.
To solve these many flaws that I have.
To solve all of them.

A warrior will not think of how to kill all of his opponents in one strike.
Instead he will concentrate on how skilled they are.
On how fast he will have to move to dodge a blow and strike back.
On the amount of time he can last against his opponents.
And how he will have to defeat them all in that amount of time.
And that means priorities.

I need to put what I have to do ahead of what I want to do.


Don't think that just because it is not their burden to bear,
they won't help a friend in need.
A true friend will always be there to lend you a shoulder to lean on.
So don't be afraid to share your problems with a friend.
They will not leave you in the lurch.
For they are those who have put their confidence in you
And the people that you have put your confidence in.

4th Memories

Have you ever found the time.
To just stop what you are doing.
And think back on your actions.


When you do,
You will find yourself saying,
I should have done this
I could have done that.
Then you say,
well, it's too bad.
It's too late to change these things.

And you are quite right.
In rememberence of September 11,
We would all think on what had happened
Six years ago,
On that fateful day.

If I was a passenger on the planes,
Would I have fought against those terrorists?
If I was one of those in the World Trade Centre,
Would I have been more concerned of my own safety,
Or would I have been worried about others?

If I was a member of the public,
And I witness the event.
Would I have ran away?
Or would I have rushed forward to help the victims?
Where would I have ran to and why?
Would I run to
A place of worship,
A place of tragedy,
Or where my loved ones are?

All these unanswered questions.
No one can answer them but yourself.
But you are in doubt.
Deep down somewhere,
You know how you would have felt.
The immobility of fear,
The fear of immobility,
The sense of helplessness,
The sense of dread,
The feeling of sadness,
The feeling of pity.

And then you ask yourself.
Whom did you fear for?
The victims?
Your loved ones?
Or is it youself?

It is not wrong to be selfish,
It is only human nature to be more concerned about yourself than others.
But have you thought
For the people suffering,
For the people dying,
For those lives that have been lost.
Have you given them even a single thought,
After you ran away.
Into the safety of elsewhere,
Did you think for them?
Pray for them?
Hope for their safety?
Wish for their longevity?

Well, this isn't for you to feel guilty about your inability to help others.
Your selfishness not to even spare a thought for others.
Nor is this to make you regret what you have done then.

But this is a rememberance.
To the mistakes that ordinary human beings make.
No matter how extroardinary the situation,
Human nature will always come into play.
Save yourself first.
You can think about anything else later.

But what if you don't have time to think for them
And your immediate actions will affect the outcome of everyone.

A quote from a book,

"You are to make a life or death decision by the end of this sentence. Oops, too late. You're dead."


You don't always have time to stop and think.
So never hesitate when you are doing something.
It is time you can't spare.
Prepare yourself for the eventuality of another tragedy.
May it be due to rising sea levels due to global warming.
Or another terrorist attack.
Prepare yourself.

For the only certainty in life,

Is hardship.


And death...

3rd Impacts

Something prompted me,
to think of such a thing.
Where would I be,
after everything.

Where would I end,
Where was the beginning.
When would the sand,
Stop flowing.

Time would never,
stop moving.
My body however,
One day will be dying.

I would not live forever.
I could not live forever.
My life will end,
For I am man.

This is a race,
weak and foolish.
Think only of face,
Never once do they relish.

It is a fact.
It is the truth.
But they'll say heck.
And call you uncouth.

They want happiness.
Avoid sadness.
But in their desires,
They hurt others.

They are blind,
Look only at their future;
Ignore the rest of their kind.
That is their culture.

Look at this place.
Where we all live in.
All those days.
They created this much sin.

Our world is breaking.
The environment is falling.
Instead of trying to fix it.
They envision the advantages of it.

Ignore the calamities it brings,
Think only of the good things.
Such is humankind.
A race which is unkind.

2nd Meetings

My love for you is endless
My feelings for you is limitless
Higher than the skies
Deeper than the seas

It is infinite
It has no beginning
It has no end
It has no limit

Nothing can stop me from loving you
For you are the only one that will do
I will be there wether you see me
For nothing can stop me

Your face tells me emotions
Your tears bring me sadness
Your smile makes me happy
Your words mean a lot to me

My only wish is to be with you
Even though it'll never come true
I think of you every night
And then I lose a bit of fight

I see your face everyday
In pictures or in the day
I think about how you feel
If you're sad, happy or feeling ill

I want to take away
all your pain and sadness
But there is no way
Not even by a curse

So i just watch from afar
And hope that you'll forgive me
I'm sorry I can't do anything for you
But my feelings are sincere and true

First Words

When the moon rises, the sun sets,
When water evaporates, the clouds rain;
When someone dies, another is born,
When someone loves, another will hate
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Nothing is irreplaceable. When something is taken away, something else is given as compensation. You may not know it but it is always there. If I were to die, someone else would take my place in this world.